I spent time OFF the web today. Part of it was my personal protest against SOPA and PIPA. (If you’ve been in a cave and missed the discussion, please click the link.) It looks as though the sponsors are going to go back to the drawing board and re-think the scope and focus of the bills. And that’s all good.
But it was also good that I took a short vacay from the cybersphere of blogging, twitter, facebook, G+, and my latest web timesuck, Pinterest. The time away was well spent: I added about 10 pages to my consultation committee papers for CPE. (More on this later… Another post…)
And I also had time to sit, and think, and pray. To be honest, I did pop on to Twitter and Facebook before dinner. I answered some emails, responded to a blog that spoke to something I’ve been ruminating on for a while. But that’s it. Pretty minimal for me. I do love teh interwebs.
I have been pondering this habit I have of living like a Human DOing, rather than a Human BEing. I keep busy. I read and think and absorb information, and then I go DO stuff. It hit me that I’m like the Pakleds on Star Trek. “I look for things…”
It’s idiotic. I do not have to engage every idea, every question, every issue. I don’t have to prove anything to anyone. And yet. I still do it anyway. As if God needs me to get in on the action of the universe. That I have to help fix or change things. NO. Really. I just need to BE the person I am created to be. And then go BE that person wherever I go.
It sounds so simple. And it is so hard.
2 I just want to know this from you: Did you receive the Spirit by doing the works of the Law or by believing what you heard? 3 Are you so irrational? After you started with the Spirit, are you now finishing up with your own human effort? [Gal. 2:2-3 Common English Bible]
For me, it all goes back to a deep, basic, personal reaction to life. I think I have to do stuff. Find stuff. Works. Law. Instead of listening and following the bend of the Spirit. Instead of allowing the Spirit’s leadership, I get a cranked up agenda of things on a “do list.”
Slowly, I’m jumping off the crazy train. Join me, if you care to… here’s what I am continuing to work on…
- Thinking through activities and opportunities that come my way, and if possible, giving them a 48 hour “think window” before saying “YES!!!” (Ahem. Or “NO.”)
- Putting reading and journaling back into my weekly schedule. It’s haphazard. I’ve kept up with Bible reading so far. (Got a little stuck in mid-Genesis. But I’m back on track.)
- Adding things into my life which spark my creative gifts in music, photography and writing. Not because I have to. But because I want to. They bring life to my soul.
- Letting someone else do the dishes and laundry. Or not finishing them. (Repeat after me: “The laundry will never get done. The dishes will get dirty again. Chill. Relax. Enjoy life.” Go ahead. Say it. You know you need it, too!)
And the rest? Well, I’ll keep figuring out as I go along.
I want to feel Your Spirit’s leading,
Your Voice in my heart responding
With joy, with celebration
In responsiveness beyond my emotion
Rooted deep in my soul.
Willow in the Wind of the Spirit… I listen. I bend. I follow.