All Things Must Pass…

George Harrison wrote a song that speaks to my attitude this morning…

I knew that my ACPE chaplaincy residency was ending this month, but I thought that I had a couple of days (at a minimum) to do closure, to say good-bye, to see friends, to process. And especially, I wanted to do an official “hand-off” of a couple of families who have needed TLC. It was not meant to be.

For whatever reason, the administrators I worked under required me to hand in my badge immediately after CPE graduation yesterday. Even though I was scheduled for on-call on Friday night, they indicated that I would not be on the floors any more.

I was taken aback.

But as I reflected on it, I realized it reflected their true colors. They can’t afford to stop and process it with me because there are patients to be cared for. They are moving on. The hospital will fill my niche with per diem staff, or (in the fall) students from CPSP.

I do grieve – a little. But I also rejoice. In the grand scheme of things, I listened to God, followed direction, and was given peace. Life as we know it in the here and now is very impermanent. The role I filled was indeed one with eternal ramifications…

I struggle with not being able to do things “my way.” I don’t like leaving people hanging. I sent a few emails, offered some contact info… and am walking on the next path God shows. It was my decision not to stay.  I could not commit to working this summer because the hospital were not providing my last unit of CPE (of ACPE) and so I had to apply elsewhere.

I’m processing. Praying. Thankful. Grateful. And indeed, I’m moving on, too. In a blast from the past, here’s some music that says it well…

All Thing Must Pass by George Harrison

Sunrise doesn’t last all morning
A cloudburst doesn’t last all day
Seems my love is up
And has left you with no warning
But it’s not always be this grey

All things must pass
All things must pass away

Sunset doesn’t last all evening
A mind can blow those clouds away
After all this my love is up
And must be leaving
It’s not always been this grey

All things must pass
All things must pass away

All things must pass
None of life’s strings can last
So I must be on my way
And face another day

Darkness only stays at nighttime
In the morning it will fade away
Daylight is good at arriving
At the right time
It’s not always
Going to be this grey

All things must pass
All things must pass away
All things must pass
All things must pass away

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