Disrupted Sleep Edition

I can always tell when I have something on my mind and I haven’t worked out how to resolve it…

I can’t sleep.

Tonight I made myself a cup of hot milk and took my melatonin.
I picked a BOoooorrrring!!! text from my CPE required reading.
I folded warm towels (don’t know why, but I find that soothing)
I read a “recreational” book on my Kindle.
I “terraformed” some of my turf on SecondLife.
I sat and watched the goldfish swim.

And here I sit, wide awake. Still.

Part of the reason I am so wide awake is that I’ve been trying to figure out WHAT I’m worrying about. I have no clue. It’s as though it’s right behind the reaches of my mind. Just around the corner from my consciousness.

Sometimes when I have insomnia, I sit and pray for everyone I can think of, mentioning them by name or by situation. I pray “around the world” for people I know in Spain, Kenya, India, Korea, Australia, Hawaii, Oregon, Ohio, North Carolina… and then here in Maryland. Sometimes I just sit in silence, waiting for “the” face or event to pop into my mind… so that I can pray, and then go to bed.

So far… I get a deafening silence. All 3 cats have wandered through, having had their first nighttime nap. Now I would dearly love to start mine.

I have to be up in 5 hours… do you suppose that will be enough sleep to do a coherent job tomorrow?? I hope so.

And whatever it is that is niggling in the back of my mind, perhaps it will come to the forefront by morning.

2 comments

  1. It may be that you are in that phase of female age and hormone related insomnia…it brings with it a sense of uneasiness…and for me melatonin usually works – but not always. I have had a fair amount of luck with vigorous exercise early in the day which made me more tired at the end of the day and or yoga and acupuncture specifically for the hormonal impact….

    and then it might be something niggling at you – in which case I usually find that body work (yoga, massage, acupuncture) tend to bring that “stuff” to the surface as well as ease me in other ways…

    hope you got some sleep and have a good day today.

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  2. Hey Terri,
    Well I’m sure hormone city isn’t helping, but after the reflective process that is CPE, I think it is more related to some areas of personal growth. (You’ve done CPE… I think you KNOW what I mean.)

    sigh. bleah.

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