I can’t sleep.
Tonight I made myself a cup of hot milk and took my melatonin.
I picked a BOoooorrrring!!! text from my CPE required reading.
I folded warm towels (don’t know why, but I find that soothing)
I read a “recreational” book on my Kindle.
I “terraformed” some of my turf on SecondLife.
I sat and watched the goldfish swim.
And here I sit, wide awake. Still.
Part of the reason I am so wide awake is that I’ve been trying to figure out WHAT I’m worrying about. I have no clue. It’s as though it’s right behind the reaches of my mind. Just around the corner from my consciousness.
Sometimes when I have insomnia, I sit and pray for everyone I can think of, mentioning them by name or by situation. I pray “around the world” for people I know in Spain, Kenya, India, Korea, Australia, Hawaii, Oregon, Ohio, North Carolina… and then here in Maryland. Sometimes I just sit in silence, waiting for “the” face or event to pop into my mind… so that I can pray, and then go to bed.
So far… I get a deafening silence. All 3 cats have wandered through, having had their first nighttime nap. Now I would dearly love to start mine.
I have to be up in 5 hours… do you suppose that will be enough sleep to do a coherent job tomorrow?? I hope so.
And whatever it is that is niggling in the back of my mind, perhaps it will come to the forefront by morning.