A week of learning

I spent this last week at the ADEC (Association for Death Education and Counseling) annual conference in Baltimore. I came home with information, ideas, lots of free pens and post-its, and some new friends. I also have a mind full of research ideas and questions.

Towards the end of the last day, I sat in the meditation room, overlooking the Baltimore Harbor.

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There was a lot of traffic. Sailboats. Ferries. Pleasure boats. Cars, buses and trucks. And foot traffic.

From my perspective, I could see the ebb and flow of traffic, the places where the traffic patterns would ease soon, and where there would be a longer wait. I watched people shiver in the shade (the breeze was quite chilly) and watched them take off jackets and sweaters when they sat for a while in the sun. In short, I could see patterns and purpose in what were minor inconveniences.

There are many times that I complain, “I JUST don’t GET it, God!”

My frustration, in the moment, is because I can’t see from a Divine perspective. I sat in the room for a while, watching, waiting and praying. My vantage point helped me reflect and be at peace.

I have perspective, but no clear destination. Even so, it is a wonderful experience to sit and feel the warmth of God’s care for me. I don’t need all the answers to experience that.

It brought to mind this quote by Thomas Merton:

My Lord God I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.

But I believe that my desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

So, so true. God never leaves nor forsakes us.

Blessed be.

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