When I left full-time ministry when our first-born was a baby, one of the books that my Beloved Bearded Spouse gave me to read was Henri Nouwen’s The Road to Daybreak. It is one of those books that I pull out from time to time to make sure that I have kept my “ministry compass” pointing north.
I re-read it recently and was amused to find this quote with the date of April 2006 – the month I found out that I was accepted into divinity school…
I feel a tension within me. I have only a limited number of years left for active ministry. Why not use them well? Yet one word spoken with a pure heart is worth thousands spoken in a state of spiritual turmoil. Time given to inner renewal is never wasted. God is not in a hurry.
There are zillion things (OK, maybe only half a zillion!) that I dream of being able to do for God as I finish my degree and begin working in ministry… and yet what is more important in the long run is the continued work of inner renewal in my heart.
I am grateful I serve a merciful, compassionate God!