O God,And I will ever praise You.
And I will seek you in the morning,
And I will learn to walk in Your ways,
And step by step You’ll lead me,
And I will follow you all of my days…
[Rich Mullins]
A busy day ends – one of worship and praise and hugs and family and a few random chores thrown in. Now, the kids, spouse and cats are all snoozing, and here I sit, typing, struggling to express some random theological thought for an assignment on the book of Isaiah.
I’m close to losing it.
There’s so much I don’t know.
But these few things I do:
I am meant to be in this position of “student”
I am called to serve as a “pastor”
I am learning what it means to serve God and be pulled between friends and home and school and church and society and…
and…
And God is sufficient.
This afternoon, I sat with my head on my hands, ready to weep with frustration over some theological minutia in Isaiah that was escaping me.
In a moment of radical thought, I prayed,
Like a blaze of light His heart responds,
The assignment needs lots of editing tomorrow. My premise and support may be lacking, but I know this:
I am redeemed.
I have Something worth giving to others… and it’s not ME!
The God of the Bible,
The Logos,
cares much less about my paper,
and more about my heart.
OK. I can grow with that…
From my heart to yours…
Deb
An Unfinished Symphony 